"bakit mo ko love?"

i would always put this question to him. i don't know why. maybe because i'm 50% obsessive-compulsive. maybe i'm insecure. maybe because i want to be sure. maybe i just need to know.

i was speaking with Uree the other day about this growing habit of mine and she told me that it's ok. apparently, she is into the same habit. she said that it's because feelings are not constant. pretty much like people. people change so emotions change along with them... she has a good point. but for whatever reason, i would find myself asking him this question from time to time:"bakit mo ko love?". it was like i was waiting for him to say something that i wanted to hear. i want to hear his reasons for loving me (as if i have my own!) but at the same time wanting him to say that he just does.

i know. stupid isn't it?

the last time i asked him this he hugged me tight, smiled, kissed the tip of my nose, looked straight into my eyes and said: "kasi pango ka..."

that was all i needed to hear...