i am on my second week of "terminal leave". at the end of the business day of april 2, i would no longer be connected with sykes and with macromedia.

i would like to regret ever filing my resignation and deciding to leave. but i have never been one to regret anything i have done. i only regret things i have not done, things i have let pass. i know deep down that i have delayed my departure for as long as i could. i feel like a guest that have overstayed my welcome. i am glad that i am moving on... to better things? maybe... but then again, anything is better than working with... eheehhehe... no. this is not the time nor the place to write anything remorseful. besides, i would rather tell them that in person, if i ever do get the chance.

i am somewhat sad because i am leaving the people i have come to call my friends. i am leaving a group where i belong and where i am admired. i am leaving my security blanket...

i spoke with a newbie a day or two before i went on leave. he came from the company i used to work in. he said that all my batchmates in training then are now supervisors and team lead. wow... and here i am. still a level one agent. and i know that if i stay here, in my comfort zone, i will always be level one agent.

*sigh* i guess i am better off in other places. moving on, just moving on...

when push comes to shove

i was served with another show-cause memo today. this time, it was for being in "idle-none" for 6 freaking minutes and having the gall to tell my team lead that i fell asleep. well... it was either lie to her or just come right out and say it... so i told her i fell asleep. kasi may integridad ako...ampotang integridad yan! nagsiwalat ako ng sama ko ng loob sa kaibigan ko, wala akong integridad. nagsabi ako ng totoo sa team lead ko... mali pa rin ako.

i give up.

aside from the memo, she told me that in order for her to provide me with timely feedback, she would place me under PIP (Performance Improvement Plan). WTF?! and the things i need to improve on? Every-freaking-thing. From attendance to workflows to break skeds. Bakit kaya hindi na lang nila ako i-terminate? Eh Needs Improvement pala ako in all aspects of my work. ampotah!

i quit.

ayan na... aalis na ko. pinilit mo ako eh.