i'm about to meet her, the woman you are currently in-love with me. my heart is beating fast. i want to smoke but it's not allowed here in mcdo. does her heart beat fast too? is she also looking toward this meeting with trepidation?

what am i going to say to her? am i going to ask her to stay away from you? maybe. i know that's bad and selfish. but i can't afford to lose you to her.

ah! the pain! it just won't go away. it's right in the center of my heart. it sits ever so comfortably. it moves from time to time and i find myself wincing, eventually crying.

all these confusion and pain. all for you.