i saw K in the office yesterday. i spoke with her. i felt so totally "wala lang". as in. she may be prettier, sexier, richer. she may be in a far better state than i am in. she may even still have darth's affection. yeah... at times i envy her so much it hurts. i even told darth how much i envy her. i said " it would be nice for someone to love me so much he would give up everything for me." yeah. it would be nice to find such a man...

anyway, she may be all that i could want. but i dare say that i am not so lost myself. i am cute in my own right. i am strong, a woman in a class of my own. i am smart with smarter friends who love me, care for me, and help me when i am down and out. she may have his affection until now. i could care less. i have the man. i have had his love for three years now. i am the woman he has promised forever to. i am the girl who's wearing the ring. most importantly, i never had to steal him from anyone. he was all mine to take. and he still is mine.

she was a nightmare i have woken up from. to have my beloved darth by my side when i woke up is a bonus. she was a wake up call for both of us. it taught me and darth to value each other, to take better care of our relationship and not take each other for granted.

i never thought i would learn so much from such a harrowing experience. but i am glad. i have woken up from the nightmare. i am wide awake.and regardless of whether i have my man next to me or not, i am moving on.