still working on my clearance. just a few more visits and i'll be done. thankfully!
still no work for me. there was one offer for a higher position but i vetoed it. the compensation offered sucked. *sigh* i wonder when i'll be able to work again? keith thinks i'm being a little too fickle and choosy but i don't think so. or maybe i am but i don't want to admit it. it's difficult, i'll say that much. it's difficult to leave a job where you're level one but paid as high as a level two. it's a lot more difficult to land a job that would pay you as high as your previous company and be level two.
still feel that i am better off leaving my security blanket though. it made me think of what i want to be years from now; made me want to think outside of what i have been used to. leaving my job made me dream again. now, i am able to think of what else i could do, what i want to do. i am now able to pursue my study of another language. next year, i might be able to buy that little piece of land and take up my masters.
still lacking in funds at the moment. i am close to using up what little money i have saved. trouble is brewing up in my parent's house in bacolod. my sister and her family might move back to our house in makati. jeesh. just what i need.
still staying in keith's place with his family. i don't have any choice and besides, i don't think his parents would want me to leave anymore.
still a bum and i'm fighting that feeling of hopelessness. i'm fighting the depression, that feeling of being good at nothing, that feeling of being nothing. still fighting the negativity...
good things come to those who wait.
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